I'm back to work tomorrow and my weight has really started to effect how I think about work. My job involves performing presentations to people every week. I've never had a problem with this in the past, but over the last 18 months to 2 years, my increasing size and lack of self esteem has been taking its toll. I've on many occasions seriously thought about not leaving the house, or catching a flight, just because of the anxiety has been so great.
I've got those feelings today, but, because of the change in life style I'm making I feel better able to cope with it.
My big worry is when I am away from home again. I fly to the US on Saturday 6th and its whilst away that I've always had problems eating the right stuff. I normally end up just eating whatever crap is easily available. This time around I'm going to work much harder to eat healthy...
Something I didn't mention in my first post was the diet I'm on which a lot of bloggers seem to do, well, I'm not following a diet as such. As I said in my original post, this is a life style change and I'm really just going to change my eating habits and content. So I'm cutting out bread (which I eat by the ton), dairy (as I drink a mountain of semi-skimmed milk every week), sugar, salt etc. The kind of stuff we all know we should watch but then ignore and get stuck into a very large jam doughnut :O)
Hmmmm, that actually sounds like a diet, so I suppose I'm just not using the D word and want this to last forever rather than a few weeks ;o)
Well, that's it again. Sorry for the long posts but I'm just getting used to putting down my thoughts and activities into the blog. I'm sure I'll get more concise as time goes on.
Thanks for reading
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